When people grieve
it is often for the relationship they didn't have
with the deceased.
Saturday, 24 July 2021
Friday, 23 July 2021
than my usual half-bottle of wine,
I'll repeat my obvious Diogenesism :
There is nothing more depressing
than clever sheeple’s optimism.
It is probably too much to hope
that 'Covid' will smother this year's
Olympic "Games", which will have to abort
and prove to be the last time that nationalism,
and transnational turbo-capitalism
will celebrate each other
in the name of ''sport".
Wednesday, 21 July 2021
with Moderate Bipolar Disorder
is that when you're Up there is
quite a large corner in your head
which harbours the dread
of the Up ending.
Perhaps never mending.
And when you're Down there is
a bigger corner of your mind
in which you despise yourself
for being merely Down
while others of your kind
are starving, tortured, unable to cope,
racked with physical pain,
and/or driven utterly insane -
and you merely mope.
but become demented by terrible experience.
Tuesday, 20 July 2021
Monday, 19 July 2021
Take one verb - let's say to oblige
remove the last letter and add -ate
- and you have to obligate.
Now take to remedy
and apply the same method
- and you get to remediate.
And so on. You can also do
something similar by simply adding -ize.
To fragment will thus become to fragmentize.
This is not wayward, but a typical
example of one accumulative way
that languages develop.
(Another way is by word-truncation.*)
Maybe to envelopate will developize
from to envelop.
At any rate, it's futile to resist
* e.g. by reducing alternative to alternate.
even though alternate already exists
with a quite different meaning.
is a subtitle for the deaf on Netflix,
but is unhelpful for those
who cannot work out
what hopeful music might be.
Sunday, 18 July 2021
has always been that
the more it advances
the more terrible are
the unintended consequences.
(One very recent and relatively minor example is the continuing effect
of the highly-profitable insecticide, DDT.)
Saturday, 17 July 2021
that Victorian & Edwardian women dealt with sexual abuse,
a disturbing awareness of the recent slave-trade
and continuing slavery all-in-one, was to subscribe
to the powerful myth of the White
(essentially blue-eyed, fair-haired, nubile English)
Female Slave Trade based in Barbary, Benin or the Bosphorus.
"Ireland and the UK were the only European countries where alcohol consumption did not fall during the first Covid wave, according to a study in the journal Addiction, suggesting a big shift to drinking at home." - from today's Guardian online.
This also suggests the obvious :
on Continental Europe (even Finland and Scandinavia ?)
alcohol consumption is more an aspect of sociability,
less a compulsive seeking of escape towards oblivion.
Friday, 16 July 2021
sought refuge in the hurricane.
The tree sought refuge in the fire,
the house in the lightning-strike,
the street in the mud-slide,
the city in the flood,
the marshland in torrential rain.
We spilled no blood.
Thursday, 15 July 2021
If you spoke your parents' language
and dared to wet your bed
it was very likely that you'd soon be dead.
Wednesday, 14 July 2021
"...the effort to be ourselves is the surest path to being just like everyone else, especially in the context of a highly commodified and surveilled culture where we always seem to be on stage. "
- Alexander Stern, in https://aeon.co/essays/a-history-of-authenticity-from-jesus-to-self-help-and-beyond
He continues, quoting Oscar Wilde:
‘Most people are other people.
Their thoughts are someone else’s opinions,
their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation.’
Tuesday, 13 July 2021
Monday, 12 July 2021
Sunday, 11 July 2021
Saturday, 10 July 2021
romantic Mr Whitman wrote:
Nothing is ever really lost, [n]or can be lost...
But of course, as hard-core Buddhists know
(and cannot be refuted),
all is loss, and all things are transmuted.
Friday, 9 July 2021
that the sainted Dr Martin Luther King Jr. could have made
such a crass, sexist, totalitarian and 'jihadist' pronouncement :
"If a man has not discovered something that he will die for,
he isn't fit to live."
But he did make it - thus condemning a large proportion
of the world's population as Untermenschen.
Thursday, 8 July 2021
“A society should be judged not by how it treats its outstanding citizens but by how it treats its criminals.”
"The degree of civilisation in a society can be judged by entering its prisons." (from The House of the Dead)
NO - a society should also and equally be judged by the proportion of its population committed to prison.
It is only civilised societies which have prisons.
Vindictiveness is the father of cruelty.
Wednesday, 7 July 2021
Just because something doesn't matter
is no reason not to notice it.
It is still said
that homosexual affections are
But then, agriculture
is, by definition, against nature;
and a species whose females
devote their lives to pleasing capricious males
- rather than the other way round -
is distinctly odd.
And most of them believe in
or tolerate the nonsense of
a supreme, capricious and male god.
Monday, 5 July 2021
Sunday, 4 July 2021
Saturday, 3 July 2021
Friday, 2 July 2021
the twin-star Alpha-beta Centauri seems single.
But to the Australian Boorong people
Alpha and Beta Centauri
are two fearsome and rampaging brothers.
"There is an indigenous tribe in Africa
that tells of life coming from the second star
in Alpha Centauri, the one no-one can see
without a high-powered observatory telescope.
Come to think of it, the Greeks, the original Australians,
and the Plains Indians [of North America]
all lived continents apart
and all, independently, looked at the same septuple knot
of the Pleiades and believed them to be
seven young girls running away from something
[or someone] that threatened to hurt them."
- Jodi Picoult: My Sister's Keeper.
Thursday, 1 July 2021
Some men have more feminine minds
and some women have more masculine ones:
the usual spectrum of diversity.
It will be no surprise that 'successful' women
are those - aspirational achievers - who most conform
to masculine (and European, world-shrinking)
ways of thinking.
Wednesday, 30 June 2021
when wisdom profits not,"
says Tiresias to Œdipus.
But another wisdom lies
in ignoring profit and
encouraging yourself to rise
above all sorrow, like a lark
above its devastated habitat.
for a new Bestseller novel:
The Omega Variant.
It may be "hitting bookshops" in a few months' time.
Tuesday, 29 June 2021
In bed this morning I suddenly remembered
returning to Europe from equatorial Africa
and my shock at seeing the grim, glum faces
of people who did not have to sleep in doorways,
under bridges and other insalubrious places.
Monday, 28 June 2021
You can find awareness only within yourself
but it is very possible that you will be
(or already are - since we are all
so shallow and so careless)
unaware of your awareness
just as you are now are ignorant
of your crippling unawareness.
Sunday, 27 June 2021
Good morning, sir, good morning, ma’am.
Yes, I’m wearing a different uniform,
different gloves, different hat.
I’ve cleaned the glass of the door—
I discovered a new solvent.
Isn’t it glorious, how the glass
is so thoroughly transparent,
transmitting sparkle from the Sun?
Yes, you’re right, it’s a different door,
different frame, different hinges, too.
Notice, in fact, that the building
into which I’m ushering you
is a different building
than the one you routinely enter.
Please, take a good look
at your reflection in the glass—
that’s the last you’ll see of it.
It won’t survive the walk across the lobby.
Someone else will step out of the elevator
on a different floor, different company,
different industry, different agenda,
different obstacles, different opportunities,
different priorities, different purpose...
Saturday, 26 June 2021
they charged across Africa and Asia,
massacring 'the natives', burning villages,
looting temples, seizing land :-
the British in Nigeria, the French in Niger;
the British in Rhodesia, the French in Algeria,
the Belgians in the Congo, the Germans then the French
in Kamerun and Togo, with missionaries at hand.
The British bombed the Kurds, transported Indians
as 'indentured labour' to the Caribbean (already full of slaves),
the French abducted half a million 'savages'
from the banks of the Ubangi to build their Congo railway.
The British blazed away in India, the French in Indo-China,
the Dutch in Indonesia, the Belgians in the Congo,
the Belgians in the Congo,
the Germans in Deutsch Ostafrika
(now Tanzania, Rwanda and Burundi ),
and the British (followed by the Japanese) in China.
Genocide on genocide carried out the length
and breadth of the Americas by the English, Scots
and Irish, Spanish, Portuguese and French...
Those greedy civilising hypocrites
and murderous moral cretins
now indulge in outrage at China's
'pacification' of Uighurs and Tibetans.
Friday, 25 June 2021
Thursday, 24 June 2021
"Let me tell you this:
if you meet a loner,
no matter what they tell you,
it's not because they enjoy solitude.
It's because they have tried before to blend into the world,
and people continue to disappoint them."
Jodi Picoult - My Sister's Keeper.
But aloners enjoy solitude.
It mitigates the disappointment.
Wednesday, 23 June 2021
Having had measles and chicken-pox
(but not scarlet fever) and had the opportunity
to escape from school for a week or so
to read Conan Doyle and E.A. Poe
and The Wind in the Willows while I was recuperating,
I'm glad there was no vaccine when I was young.
What we (and the planet) really need
and will never get, is MMM inoculation.
There are even worse outrages than Vaginal Infibulation -
such as repeated gang-rape, massacres, genocide,
compulsory religion, slavery, misogyny, racism
- and war. To these I would add Mass Mental Mutilation.
Tuesday, 22 June 2021
On this freaky and paltry planet
wandering round a trifling star
in a middling sort of galaxy
a freaky species - the first with intentionality -
is well on its way to achieving
a minor episode of extinction.
The last (major) extinction
millions and millions of years ago
took millions of years of tectonic upheavals
and slidings, vast volcanic eruptions, meteor-impact,
dramatic (but slow) global warming and cooling,
but the current little extinction didn't get going
until about 200 years ago and might take
less than 100 years more of wanton pollution,
pandemics, bio-breakdown and war.
Is this a record ? I ask
my young friend, the plesiosaur.
Monday, 21 June 2021
Sunday, 20 June 2021
Bread, with its intensive, uncertain,
back-breaking cultivation, came a very long time ago,
when and where there were no bananas, broccoli,
asparagus, artichokes, cabbages, leeks, brussels sprouts,
courgettes, squashes, tomatoes, avocados, goji, oranges,
nectarines, apricots, plums, apples, cherries, pears...
rice or maize or quinoa, seaweed, seakale, spinach...
And yet people insist on eating bread, which now depends
on vast industries of seed-hybridisation (and patenting),
of machinery devoted to ploughing, planting, harrowing,
spraying, cutting, separating, winnowing, milling,
marketing, baking, marketing, transporting,
when they and the planet would be better off -
if we would only tell each other and our children to eat
all those fruits and vegetables which have been
developed since the start of the malign
and divisive dictatorship of wheat.
Bread is a complicated cultural artefact like language or religion
- and is just as toxic to the biosphere as the industry of meat.
Sic transit stultitia humana.
Leavened bread and alcohol both depend on yeast.
Bread and alcohol together constitute a feast.
Saturday, 19 June 2021
because democracy created capitalism,
then consumerism, and nobody wants
to reduce their standard of living
(which they think is quality of life)
and dependence on things,
even on swindles like bottled water.
Only enlightened dictators can possibly
avert the holocaust to come. Unfortunately
there have never been any Philosopher Kings.
And so Planet Earth limps on
like a lamb to the slaughter.
Friday, 18 June 2021
I am always saving paper, writing on the backs of scraps and cut-up cardboard packaging. Thanks to Google and Duck-Duck-Go I found this statistic :
Click to enlarge. If it doesn't show properly, click here
and scroll down.
the average office worker in the UK uses up to
45 pieces of paper per day, and a staggering two-thirds of that is considered to be waste.
Thursday, 17 June 2021
by life - even though I regret my birth.
I never had much motivation
to search for love in bars or plazas
social gatherings or nooks
upon this sorry earth.
What I sought was inspiration,
which I found in books
was wicked only to me
(his sister's awkward bastard)
because he did not like shy,
wussy, left-handed little boys.
He was a medical practitioner,
a family doctor who used to make tea
for his elderly patients,
light their fires in winter
and take an interest in them.
He or his practice-partner often knew
other family members
and the family history.
But he frightened me.
It was he who prevailed
upon my mother to send me to a school
which would 'toughen me up'.
In this (I'm glad to say) he failed.
declared that there were
just two classes in the civilised world :
the naïve (or natural, spontaneous, uncorrupted)
and the sentimental (or filled with false sentiment,
hypocritical, corrupt). He was discussing poets
(presumably male), but the idea is worth expanding.
I know from experience that sentimental hearts
are mean, rococo, and that naivety in men
deprives them happily of all standing.
Wednesday, 16 June 2021
"Scientists have developed a technique to turn waste plastic bottles into the synthetic vanilla flavouring vanillin."
What then happens to the millions of litres
of unused (unusable ?) vanillin ?
And what about the millions of plastic bottles
in the middle of the Pacific.
Who will fish them out ?
Tuesday, 15 June 2021
could have done with some help from me
to 'loosen up'.
The word quack is one of many Dutch words
(as well as pronunciation-changes)
that crossed over to Britain
with William III of Orange:
Kwacksalver = a healer-spieler.
Nothing to do with Quicksilver.
Monday, 14 June 2021
A couple of months ago I discovered
that flapdoodle meant not only 'nonsense'
but (originally) was a wonderful
word for the male member or pizzle.
Codswallop is another graphic term
for the same appendage..
Today I learned that baloney is a synonym
of Bologna, a kind of spam sausage, as well
as for hogwash, bullshit, and so on...
...and on to jiggery-pokery, presumably by weenies
- from Wiener[wurst], another kind of sausage.
My new web-page of poems by
can be read here.
I discovered her only yesterday.
She is as good as Sylvia Plath.
She had a Kurdish lover.
She reminds me of Jean Rhys.
She had a break-down,
subsequently became a Baptist
and was immersed in the river Jordan.
She disowned her poems
presumably because she thought them louche
But where did Jesus shit ?
There are no relics.
Sunday, 13 June 2021
as I like the word WHOLESOME,
but there is a noxious miasma of a word
which I greatly dislike.
If only we could replace LOVE
(unstable, hormonal, irrational,
with GENTLE FONDNESS
we might release each other
from the inane evils
of the soggily amorous.
[see also a previous blog]
"Thank you for the love !" said ex-king Trump to his fans.
which occurs nine calendar months
after my birth day : the feast day
of St Anthony of Padua
who had a pet pig.
Name-days used to be celebrated,
especially in Russia, when everyone
was named after an archangel or a saint.
Now we are much more egotistical,
and allegedly more 'individual'.
This is not true.
Sheeple breed in their billions,
individuals are very few.
[Sant’Antonio da Padova, original name Fernando Martins de Bulhões, (born 1195, Lisbon, Portugal—died June 13, 1231, Arcella, Verona; canonized 1232; Franciscan friar, doctor of the church, and patron of the poor. Padua and Portugal claim him as their patron saint, and he is (bizarrely) invoked for the recovery or return of lost property.]
Saturday, 12 June 2021
is neither artificial nor intelligent,'
writes Kate Crawford of Microsoft Research.
It is made from rare natural resources (e.g. lithium mines),
uses vast amounts of electricity
and large numbers of people
(mostly badly paid and non-unionised)
who perform the (mostly menial)
tasks that make the systems seem
automatic and autonomous.
It is just a new kind of resource-devouring slavery.
My belly buzzing ?
No - a small bee trapped
between the pages of my book.
Friday, 11 June 2021
Christianity was what we would now call racist,
and was certainly divisive.
Civis romanus sum,
declared the controlling, micromanaging St Paul,
not Iudaeus sum, nor even Humanus sum.
(If you don't know basic Latin or basic Christian history,ignore this blog.)
(Incidentally, women were not virile Roman citizens, merely women,
even if they manipulated emperors, as did Agrippina and Helena.)
(Christianity was a disaster for the planet; it produced Islam and, much worse, modern science and technology which have reduced the Earth to short-term resource.)
(And so they, the white Christians, plan to migrate to another planet, create another desert without Desert Fathers.)
(Paul hoped to "save" himself [from what ?] by "saving" others. And so he and the cult that he founded doomed the planet and its dominant race to bleak sterility.)
Thursday, 10 June 2021
The odious Marcus Aurelius
genocidal Roman Emperor
and fake-philosopher, tycoon,
in which a hundred European lions
(now unsurprisingly extinct)
were slaughtered in one afternoon.
Wednesday, 9 June 2021
Climate-change and the collapse
in both sexes of human fertility
(due to the spate
of industrial chemicals in the water
and the atmosphere)
may shortly combine
to Save the Planet
just a little late.
Tuesday, 8 June 2021
contains the Latin word for man,
as does VIRile.
Even worse, the same syllable
occurs, slightly transformed,
But women will never
abandon virtue and give birth
to women who might rescue
the human-male-choked earth.
Monday, 7 June 2021
that most psychological experiments
have been carried out on students
in euro-american universities and hospitals.
Many of the many conclusions drawn may well not be
applicable to people of other classes, cultures and times.
And there are no Universal Human Values,
just universal human crimes.
Sunday, 6 June 2021
from the destructive effects of technology
(especially of technology which was designed to
but did not reverse or even ameliorate
the destructive effects of technology)
any better than militarism can save us
from the evils of militarism.
Saturday, 5 June 2021
Friday, 4 June 2021
towards alleviating Climate Change :
World Masturbation-Celebration Month for Men.
"It goes without saying" -
which is why no-one says - that
climate-change is a function of overpopulation.
Thursday, 3 June 2021
Wednesday, 2 June 2021
Tuesday, 1 June 2021
Monday, 31 May 2021
Sunday, 30 May 2021
Saturday, 29 May 2021
"One can tell any story except one's own."
Hmm... Disregarding the Big Question of Truth,
stories depend on language
and where language is lacking
the story is lacking.
Thus there is no such thing as a complete story.
Friday, 28 May 2021
Thursday, 27 May 2021
Every adolescent should know
that for a 'blow-job' you should not blow,
and sucking is chokingly
We, the sensually-advanced, initiated
by tongue-tip round the glans
and frenum are ecstatic fans
of a practice easy and uncomplicated.
Wednesday, 26 May 2021
government is the most rational
in Europe by not favouring
the expensive old
in their vaccination programme.
After all, my pampered generation
has already benefited from
an unasked-for extension of life.
Tuesday, 25 May 2021
I have been trying to get to grips with crazy Lacan.
who makes me think of the legendary
theologians who for years enjoyed
calculating how many angels
could dance on the head of a pin.
But I like the idea that human consciousness
(and the search for 'knowledge') is ineluctably paranoid.
He was obsessed
with the effects of mothers and fathers
(and their mere genders) in infant development.
He seems to me himself to be (like Freud)
a driven victim of extremely limited middle-class attitudes.
Since I never had a father (and hardly even noticed)
and no mother that I know of for the first year of my life
(she turned up later, as my 'aunt', after she adopted me)
and am less up-tight than most,
by Lacan I (a happy solitary) am not impressed.
Monday, 24 May 2021
Sunday, 23 May 2021
"First came the Spaniards
then the dutiful Chinese.
These quiet docile workers were replaced by
the hysterical Italians, the cagey Swiss,
the stoical Mexicans, the snobby French,
the crazy Germans, the friendly Greeks
and the unfathomable Armenians."
- Alan Parker, The Sucker's Kiss, 2003
(And the others ?)
Yesterday, on the radio, I heard the word
I think the speaker meant divine.
Saturday, 22 May 2021
Normal human activity
is worse for 'nature'
than 'the greatest nuclear accident in history'.
are no longer at the gates,
but in McDonald's
piling up their plates.
Thursday, 20 May 2021
when she was suffering from cancer.
Those cells were found to be unique in a most particular way.
They continued to reproduce endlessly in the laboratory.
Culture from those cells have since been used
in thousands of scientific experiments.
But - of course - Henrietta herself was never asked
if her cells could be used in medical research.
Much less rewarded.
Wednesday, 19 May 2021
but a process through which
one person attempts to know another."
- John Williams, in STONER, 1965.
I don't know whether or not I have experienced love.
I have felt many fondnesses, from deep
to superficial, and some infatuations,
which by definition are superficial passions
that come and go...
but love, I think, is something other people feel,
or claim to.
"...how will we ever know
True love, how will we ever know ?"
I wanted to be a (male) ballet-dancer.
At ten I found an interest in astronomy.
I prevailed upon my mother to take me
to meetings of the Irish Astronomical Society.
In 1953, when I was eleven,
I had my first little essay
published in the school magazine.
It was a review of Flying Saucers Have Landed
by Leslie and Adamski.
Long before sheeple became interested
in space travel, I had read Werner von Braun
- and abandoned astronomy because
it was too mathematical, and in any case
it was probably a childish pseudo-intellectual pose.
But this very day I hear that the Department
of Defense in the USA is about to publish
its hitherto-unrevealed documents on UFOs.
Tuesday, 18 May 2021
Thought depends on data, also known as facts.
But facts change - especially in the inappropriately-named
'social sciences', which should really be called
'the evolution of prejudices'.
Many 'facts' have been shown to be fictions,
racist and sexist propaganda based on crude assumptions,
or wishful thinking.
For example (on the one hand)
the socialist myth of 'primitive egalitarianism',
and (on the other hand)
the misogynist myth of 'Stockholm Syndrome'.
Thinking to Some Purpose can be criminal.
Who ever 'abandoned themselves' to Reason ?
Monday, 17 May 2021
Sunday, 16 May 2021
Saturday, 15 May 2021
Friday, 14 May 2021
and it is not a pea under my mattress
which is causing discomfort - but seams
which irritate my skin (are seams getting rougher ?)
even when I wear my upper clothing inside out.
Age certainly does not make my skin tougher.
I disliked princesses when I was a child
and am repelled by blond hair, blue eyes,
I wanted to befriend an ogre
and worked on building up my odour.
I would never have divined
that I would become so utterly refined
that I had to protect my psoriatic skin
with seamless silk -
made from worms boiled up alive.
Thursday, 13 May 2021
It was immediately obvious to me
(first year at University)
that the statement by the odious Descartes
Cogito, ergo sum (I think, therefore I am)
was simply stupid.
The only conclusion from Cogito...
is that something thinks or thinks its thinks
for, through or in me.
It might be me, but on the other hand it could be God
or Satan or Vladimir Putin,
a machine, a distant star - or you.
Sentio, ergo sum ?
The pseudo-philosophy based on
was such patent nonsense
that I gave up on philosophy.
I decided that it wasn't serious.
Thinking is just a consequence
or maybe a small part of feeling.
Incredible cruelty resulted from Descartes' assertion
that other animals have no feeling
- a belief still widely held in France.
Sentio ergo est ?
I certainly cannot claim that there's an 'I' in me,
not even inside my pants.
Wednesday, 12 May 2021
Tuesday, 11 May 2021
Monday, 10 May 2021
expensive prescription drugs are pushed
through aggressive advertising
by their manufacturers - sometimes with help
from Federal authorities.
Hence the Opiate Addiction Epidemic,
which, thanks to racism, has not so badly
affected Ethnic Minorities.
Sunday, 9 May 2021
Saturday, 8 May 2021
Friday, 7 May 2021
(I am thinking of the teachers at my semi-public school
where I was forced to play nasty, 'manly' games
and go for runs in foul weather)
- many people
prefer the ecstasy of sarcasm
to the ecstasy of orgasm.
I wonder if anyone enjoys both ecstasies together ?
Thursday, 6 May 2021
"I Care A Lot is a damning indictment of the corruption that pollutes the courts, healthcare, for-profit elderly care and, most of all, state-sanctioned guardianship, which strips the elderly and disabled folks of their agency." - (review on Rotten Tomatoes)
Audience score a mere 35% on Rotten Tomatoes, but 6.3 on Imdb.
This wonderfully dystopian (American, therefore violent), semi-satirical thriller about the criminalisation of the American healthcare system (by doctors and lawyers) has no pleasant characters. It features a lesbian relationship between two nasty-greedies, and a sexy evil Russian hairy dwarf (Peter Dinklage) who reflect the medieval prejudices of our culture.
see also: Ripping off the bereaved.
Wednesday, 5 May 2021
Not only am I a precursor
of the baby-boom Me-Generation,
but also, since around 1960
I have been 'assailed' continually
by reports of famines, genocides,
civil wars...not to mention
the films and books,
now e-mails and websites
devoted to 'man's inhumanity',
and so I now most conveniently in my fugitivity
have Compassion Fatigue
from mumbling ever-uselessly
at the edge of ever more catastrophes.
Tuesday, 4 May 2021
Monday, 3 May 2021
is that of bringing suffering
directly or indirectly into the world;
the lesser is to separate children definitively,
ineluctably according to their sex.
When I told my farmer friend
during a February heat-wave
here in southern France,
that I was pretty sure we'd have
frost in May, he laughed.
But I'm not bad at long-range
weather forecasting. This morning
the fields were sparkling white.
Sunday, 2 May 2021
Saturday, 1 May 2021
I was fired abruptly from my budding (and only) career
as a magazine columnist by writing, sometime around 1980
(when monster-finders switched their crusading attention
from 'homosexuals' to 'paedophiles')
that sex between men and boys was not necessarily abusive,
could be a Hellenic act of kindness and tenderness by both parties
- and that I as a fatherless and sexually-curious boy
emotionally-abused and physically beaten at school by men,
would have welcomed an occasional kindly, gentle, hairy,
therapeutic hand on my genitals from around the age of ten.
Friday, 30 April 2021
Thursday, 29 April 2021
for somebody you have never met
and do not know is utterly ridiculous.
"African Wild (or 'Painted') dogs
vote by sneezing,
deciding whether to hunt
based on a quorum of achoos.
When their leader – always female – dies,
they vote for her successor with eerie whoops and hoots.
They rarely fight and are particularly successful predators,
gleefully ripping apart live smaller prey
by each holding a limb and pulling in four directions."
Wednesday, 28 April 2021
Tuesday, 27 April 2021
I used to have a parrot that screamed
"HELP! THEY TURNED ME INTO A PARROT"
I am really a dog,
but nobody cares that I was turned into a human,
probably by anti-abortionists.
Monday, 26 April 2021
Sunday, 25 April 2021
Saturday, 24 April 2021
Friday, 23 April 2021
Thursday, 22 April 2021
Wednesday, 21 April 2021
Tuesday, 20 April 2021
Monday, 19 April 2021
are not really theories
People who are attracted to them
are not wanting information,
simply confirmation of their prejudices.
they don't understand the randomness
of sickness or the lightning-strike.
I notice that I tend not to believe
people whose faces I do not like.
Sunday, 18 April 2021
Saturday, 17 April 2021
Friday, 16 April 2021
Thursday, 15 April 2021
chastity is the strangest,"
wrote priapic Anatole France.
Had he not heard of serial rapists,
necrophilia, pædophilia, bestiality,
binding tight another's balls
with a leather bootlace,
and other forms of sexual cruelty ?
Chastity is no perversion -
but perhaps a kind of grace.
(Though a lot depends on what you mean
by perversion, and by chastity.)
Wednesday, 14 April 2021
Tuesday, 13 April 2021
Every day, as I get out of bed
to open the shutters
I think of my dead,
my beautiful dead.
They come back in my dreams.
Why should I push them out of my head,
my beautiful dead ?
The first was my fierce grandmother's
beautiful corpse on her bed
whom I lay on and kissed in the hope
that she'd wake up before her soul fled.
(I was ten at the time.)
I stroked all their corpses,
my beautiful dead -
my aunt and my mother, my dogs -
all except one who was murdered.
The last one I killed because he had killed
too many chickens and cats.
I buried him with his ball
in a tumbledown shed
in the wood by my house,
the last (so I hope) of my beautiful dead.
Monday, 12 April 2021
...until all the infants are dead.
Sunday, 11 April 2021
Saturday, 10 April 2021
Friday, 9 April 2021
Thursday, 8 April 2021
Wednesday, 7 April 2021
Tuesday, 6 April 2021
Jesus had nothing to say
on environmental issues;
though he wore sandals
he was not an 'eco-freak'.
But for millennia before and after him
Nature has been turning the other cheek.
Monday, 5 April 2021
let us not do so 'positively'
according to wealth or fame,
by (estimated) carbon footprint,
the smallest of which is committed
by beggars and the poor, who receive
only the shit of the suffering we consume,
and will soon have no earth to inherit.
Sunday, 4 April 2021
Saturday, 3 April 2021
I might well and wholeheartedly have embraced Communism,
unaware that Lenin and Stalin (white males, like Marx)
had already destroyed it,
thus ensuring the terrible, temporary
triumph of Consumer Capitalism.
Friday, 2 April 2021
Thursday, 1 April 2021
Wednesday, 31 March 2021
Tuesday, 30 March 2021
Monday, 29 March 2021
Sunday, 28 March 2021
"...the colonial experience of my generation was almost wholly without violence.
It was a terror of the mind; a daily exercise in self-mutilation.
Black versus black in a battle for self-improvement."
- George Lamming, on life in the British colony of Barbados.
Saturday, 27 March 2021
is the affectation of the rich
the plaything of the powerful
- Diogenes of Dunromin
*or aphorism or apothegm, if indeed there is any difference between them.
I love it when the clocks go forward
because I'm an hour closer to oblivion.
I love it also when the clocks go back
because I get an extra hour of sleep,
which is a fake oblivion,
not so mercifully final, not so terminally deep.
Friday, 26 March 2021
Thursday, 25 March 2021
Michel de Montaigne, wrote:
"Instead of always looking out from me, I like sometimes
to look into me, appraise myself...taste myself...
roll about in myself."
This is the feeling of being tinglingly alive
above and below the neck, and gently
commingling with an inevitable cosmic flow,
which in the Japanese tradition is achieved
by the contemplation of suicide,
and in some other cultures is sometimes reached
by absorbing things that grow.
It is, perhaps, the opposite of 'amour-propre' and 'self-respect'
and one day may even become 'politically-correct'.
for more of Montaigne see here.
Wednesday, 24 March 2021
Tuesday, 23 March 2021
But of course, hidden within that murderous religion,
is the slinky message that "all are equal in the sight of God".
Monday, 22 March 2021
it's bizarre that a small tribe on the lower Rhine
gave their name to honesty, directness and freedom,
as well as to children all over Western Europe:
Franck, Franz, François, Françoise, Francis,
Francesco, Francesca, Francesca, Prionsias, Ffrancis,
František, Frans, Ferenc, Francine, Frances, Marie-France...
and, in the Southern Asian term Farangi,
to any European or white-skinned American.
But it took a long time for people between the Loire,
the Pyrenees and the Alps to think of themselves as French.
Sunday, 21 March 2021
inside your momentous body
is magic, if your body and moment are good -
which, of course, they are not for most members
of our mad species at any given moment.
it is worth remarking that the WHO*
(and, with it, homosensuality)
as a 'psychiatric disorder' until 1990.
The world is not a stage, dear William,
but a Punch-and-Judy Show.
*World Heterosexual Oligarchy
Saturday, 20 March 2021
in its ruthless drive
to separate humans from each other
(except when they have to breed)
so that each one can become
individually and remotely dependent
on supplies they do not need.
Friday, 19 March 2021
Marcel Proust lived a short time
before the fragile spider-web internet,
a time that is lost for at least
the time being - except in books
which will not last
beyond our overdue extinction,
when we will be slime
amongst our detritus and ruins
at the end of mercifully
unrecoverable tick-tock time.
by trade and walls.
Nobody civilised is free.
Thursday, 18 March 2021
Wednesday, 17 March 2021
Tuesday, 16 March 2021
(taken on a visit to Los Angeles)
to the FlickR Worst Photographs of 2020 group
- which was more interesting than their
(three times larger)
Best Photographs 2020 collection.
- SO, MODERATE YOUR FUCKS !
Monday, 15 March 2021
was work: the unfortunate discovery
that some could bully others into labour
in fenced fields by the simple inculcation
of the joined-at-the-head-twin concepts
of property and inequality
through religion and morality
to keep us in our place
in time and in conformity.
Sunday, 14 March 2021
"...aid to distressed countries
which would enable them to buy more goods
and by buying more goods strengthen the spiritual links..."
- Graham Greene : Our Man in Havana (1958).
Saturday, 13 March 2021
Friday, 12 March 2021
Thursday, 11 March 2021
some famous convents and monasteries
(Fontevrault, Clairvaux) were converted into prisons.
Perhaps in the next revolution the prisons will be
converted into monasteries and convents.
(At present, to call a French policeman an asshole (un con) in public is considered to be as great a crime as robbery with violence
and will attract a mandatory 3-month jail-sentence suspended for 5 years.)
of the declaration of Sars-Covid-2 as a pandemic,
I thought you'd like to view a landscape near you
as it may be some time after the next
modest pandemic reaches your shores
(hæmorrhagic fever, bleeding from eyes
and all other orifices, suppurating sores)
via some stressed animal or other - maybe another kind of bat
from a horribly and humanly-degraded habitat.
|photo by Rover|
Wednesday, 10 March 2021
Part of the 'Moral Failure of The West'
lies in its aesthetic failure to appreciate flaws,
and in its inability to value something *for* its imperfection
(Persian rugs, Japanese ceramics, broken objects, beautiful decay...)
- possibly because we're terrified that our so-vaunted culture
will pass or be swept away.
Tuesday, 9 March 2021
We don't regale each other any more
with stories about men (always men)
selling their souls or shadows
to Satan, Beelzebub, the greedy Source of Evil.
But every day we buy goods
online, or in a boutique, emporium or store,
which are grown, made, processed, packed
or transported by Gross Profit's ill-paid victims.
We are The Devil.
Monday, 8 March 2021
Increasingly, I feel
that I am living in a dream-world
- except that as narrator-cum-observer
in my private dreams
I never feel appalled.
I am a maladjusted changeling
on your tragic planet. Because of Covid
and a lack of transport
I cannot get back to Beta Cynotopia.
But thanks for your financial support.
Sunday, 7 March 2021
to be a terrorist
than to eat meat -
unless you are
a meat-eating terrorist.
According to French custom
I rented this grave for thirty years
in a leafy corner of a graveyard fifteen years ago,
thinking that I'd be in it by now.
I may never be in it, for I have also willed my body
to the Toulouse medical faculty, who of course
will be at liberty to refuse it
if it has putrefied too much for them to use.
|Helleborus niger 'Midnight'|
Saturday, 6 March 2021
The fewer the humans
the less the misery.
No future was ever better.
I can roll my Rs, and pronounce
the name of the former dukedom where I live
just as the locals do : Rouergue.
Perhaps, before I die, I'll be able to whistle
through my teeth. My conversation
with a blackbird yesterday
was pathetically one-sided.
Friday, 5 March 2021
It is well-known (amongst certain cultural historians and phoneticists at least)
that the modern pronunciations of French, Danish and English (at least)
were the result of speech impediments or mannerisms at royal courts, and, in the case of English, also of the importation of Dutch- and then German-speaking rulers and their courtiers and soldiers.
In modern times the speech of female, white Americans has altered very noticeably. As women more and more assert their rights and grievances, their speech has become more nasal, more penetrating, faster, and (inevitably) less clear. It sounds like souped-up Barbie-speak, and may yet evolve into Chipmunk.
Hillary Clinton is a comparatively mild example, but I find that more than half a minute of her shrieky delivery makes me turn off the radio to avoid a headache.
Thursday, 4 March 2021
were replaced by anthropic gods,
who were by accident of history
squashed by the jealous Jewish God,
who slowly and unwillingly morphed
into Truth and Wisdom,
which were torn by barbed-wire,
corrupted by unfairness, greed,
ideals, hate and prejudice -
which were consumed by fire.
that more than 10% of the 320 land mammals known to have lived in Australia in 1788 are now extinct. Read more >
Ireland, of course, lost furry fauna (and most of its forests) before 1788 : wolves, bears, elks, wild pigs, beavers...so let us not scapegoat white Australians.
Wednesday, 3 March 2021
a little before the Spaniards,Portuguese,
and other European 'gangster scum' went to Africa,
they didn't go as greedy, bloodthirsty pirates seeking slaves
but with dignity of state in large (unwieldy and expensive)
ships loaded with porcelain and tea and silks
to offer as gift-sweeteners for trade-deals or tributes
from the darker people that they found
(whom Europeans were wont to label 'beasts'
and lesser breeds without The Law)
- and never dreamed of sending priests.
Things are a little different this time round.
Tuesday, 2 March 2021
This world is governed by a vast obese baby
who ages surprisingly, intolerably slowly
whose oozing rash we must lick happily
whose farts we must inhale
whose shit we must devour al dente
whose piss we swim through doggedly
whose sweat lubricates our brains
whose blood oils our machinery
whose feet crush us like acorns
whose hands manipulate us like puppets
whose eyes watch every one of us
whose ears record our ear-worms
whose genitals arouse us irresistibly
whose screaming mouth gives us
day-in, day-out and all night long
whose horns impale us
whose beard entangles us
whose perpetual infection
we happily endure
but decline to cure.
Monday, 1 March 2021
It doesn't seem so long ago
that I received at least three
personal letters a week from the postman
who drove down my muddy, rutty lane.
I had boxes of them, with carbon copies
of my replies. I typed all my letters because
handwriting has been a problem for me
ever since I was forced to use my right hand,
and consequently (in those days of metal nibs
dipped into ink) dropped blots amongst
my spidery, uneven script.
Then came ball-point pens, which teachers
and other cultural snobs resisted.
The great thing about e-mail is that I can choose
the font and size (Bookman Old Style 16 point),
add pictures as attachments
or within the text. But my desk is still covered
with scrappy little notes I sometimes cannot read
because my writing never improved after the age of eight
when I was quite inappropriately
sent to a snobby school where I too often had to do
text-copying (with fountain-pen) as punishment.
Saturday, 27 February 2021
Friday, 26 February 2021
with a lot of time on their own;
perhaps they're 'hard-wired'
And maybe men are 'hard-wired'
for gang-rape, which is why they don't know
what to do when alone for long periods -
except drink and/or wank...
or kill themselves.
from Sociology wihout Evidence, the Qweir Handbook.
Thursday, 25 February 2021
mentioned by Jesus
are really the easy-going, happily laid-back
who don't write Last Wills and Testaments
and have no more wish to inherit the dearth
than to become as rich as Croesus.
I don't like doors or locks.
I am a dog.
Dogs don't mind seat-belts.
I am not a dog.
Wednesday, 24 February 2021
me, out of the blue, if I play chess.
I can think logistically
but I can’t think strategically,
so I’m hopeless at chess
(though I like the horse and the turret).
I'm no good at draughts, but not so bad
at an African game
involving cups and pebbles or seeds.
I didn't mind coming last in
the once-a-year egg-and-spoon race,
which probably nobody plays any more,
not even sport-retards like me.
Scrabble is fun (I still have my old board
with wooden tiles) so long as I play
with someone like me who
wants to make words and is not fixated
on winning - and, of course, not on-line.
If, in another fun game, my opponent, poor soul,
would prefer me to slide down a snake
and not climb up any ladders - well,
it's up to the die or the dice, but I'd happily cheat
to help him/her to win. I'm a Born Loser
an unintentional survivor)
and lack that horrible hominid attribute
competitiveness for competitiveness' sake.
(one that is not taught in
school or Sunday-school)
Verily, it is better to be oppressed
than to rule.
Tuesday, 23 February 2021
Monday, 22 February 2021
Sunday, 21 February 2021
and not necessarily
'written by the victors',
but, rather, by those who can write
and can write the best narrative.
good mental health
in a society based upon crude wealth
which seems to function
but is not only obviously sick
but also defines good mental health ?
Saturday, 20 February 2021
it is by what befalls us,
rather than what we do
or we intend.
On Monday the government
is vaccinating people,
on Tuesday it is shooting them,
on Wednesday there's no more water,
On Thursday bombs fall -
that's how our little
devastated world will end.
has not been weird
perhaps you haven't
had a day,
says the sage who mumbles
into his beard
that there is either nothing
or too much to say.
Friday, 19 February 2021
Thursday, 18 February 2021
For a long time, the title United States of America
has greatly annoyed me. It would annoy me even
if it were called The United States of North America -
for, the North American nation which we call Mexico
is in fact the United States of Mexico. So the USA
should call itself the United Anglophone States
of North America, including both Texas and Florida.
The United Kingdom sounds as if it belongs to no continent,
and indeed many people within it think so, but it is
the United Kingdom of Great Britain (England +Wales and Scotland),
with or without 'autonomous' Northern Ireland. It does not include
the Isle of Man or the Channel Islands (which the French
quite exactly call les Iles anglo-normandes).
Its name may soon have to change.
The Union of Soviet Socialist Republics has disappeared,
leaving its core: the Russian Federation of 'autonomous' statelets and regions
and cities all known as Subjects - such as Tatarstan,
Tuva, Karelia, Komi, Chukotka, Udmurt, Magadan..., ).
Malaysia (you may be surprised to learn)
is a Federal Constitutional Monarchy
comprising thirteen states (including the Sultanate
of Brunei) and three federal territories.
Greenland (which has a rather fine flag - see below) is not a country
but an 'Autonomous Territory' (Kalaalit Nunaat)
within the Kingdom of Denmark*
(which once also embraced Norway, South Sweden and Iceland).
Venezuela is The Bolivarian Republic -
but I won't go on...
(*note that the first nation-state flag, white on red, was Danish.)
Wednesday, 17 February 2021
doesn't have hotels or railway-stations
but shopping-malls and private airports.
The streets are different, too:
Dirty Tricks Drive